Mastur_Master: yes i noticed the extensions of the files so i knew they were safe but one is named cioamalau instead of ciomalau - i was thinking maybe it's a screenshot of chat from an account which tries to impersonate ciomalau which was mine. but i didn't initially bother to look at it i was just bored.. now i looked at what i said back then, and yes it was me who said that. maybe some people would feel guilt if they were me?.. i don't want to be rude but guilt serves no purpose and i got enough problems already. what matters is that it won't happen again. i don't think my words now can impress anybody but in time you'll see that i'll stick to my word..
PS: regarding guilt or the lack of it, idk why but i always had a huge crush for females who can't show any shame. i think that's both funny and attractive.. i'm just a dreamer ok?..
GameRager: As ro the 1st bit above: At least you are willing to apologize, which is better than some trolls(some of which posted here as well or are lurking) here say or do. If you mean it(
and I think you might), then I hope you do well here and start to heal the divide between yourself and others while feeling better overall. Good luck, at any rate.
2nd bit above(the PS part): Being a dreamer in general is usually a good thing.....it is the dreamers, after all, who helped conceive some of the things we take for granted every day for work or entertainment.
you are too kind with me and i hope not to disappoint. but i used to have strong opinions about dreamers like me in general.. not like i would deserve to be a judge but it's more like a flaw or a quality. as you just seen in my old chats, i was never a philosopher or someone for others to rely on for advice in life regarding what's good or bad.. idk it's just my impressions and what i heard from others too.. idk how the classroom's main teacher is called in english - principal? so my principal in highschool who was a woman, she warned me because she thought that i'm a dreamer and she was right. and i'm still like that because i know of no other way to be. but at least i don't cause damage with what i imagine. even in a song made by Whitney Houston she said "i've been around long enough to know / that dreams don't turn to gold". or a very old song, i guess it was made by Nazareth - "though you're fooling yourself, though it's hard to tell.. dream on, dream on". so where do i start now - a main characteristic of dreamers is that they have passion (which keeps them motivated) but they use it more in the details than the big picture. this goes into surprisingly many different aspects - like someone who goes shopping and buys chocolate, coca cola, etc, and when he has to buy bread which everybody needs, he just realised that he ran out of money. this never happened to me of course but i mean someone who does the small things which are unimportant but who ignores what truly matters the most. i think it's like memory - when you remember a list of things, the dreamer starts with the smallest because they're easiest to forget and leaves the biggest obvious things last. it's like trying to do things perfectly but failing bad.. :-/ you say that dreamers create games. yes of course i like games (except sports like football, basketball and the worst is wrestling) but games are very much like dreams too - they only serve as entertainment unfortunately, passing time to feel good.. and then you can read my username.. so you know what i do when i'm alone without video games for long times.. :-/ if i don't think about video games, i always feel the need to think about something else which is entertaining. i can't just be awake and think for hours about nothing - so i think about women, what else.. i was amazed however that long ago there was this game called air rivals - now it's ace online but game was changed in many ways, like the owners and now it's not so friendly for newbies. i mean you have to waste years as prey for the enemy nation, hundreds of dollars to get permanent armor camouflage or how it's called, i don't remember. so at one point they introduced a powerful item which can be permanently applied to armors. and before gameforge lost ownership of the game because license ended, they made lots of bye-bye events where you could obtain even the most expensive things for free - including this item. or they did broken happy hours where the experience gained by killing monsters had insane multipliers. and when the game went back to masang, all these events suddenly ended because masang wanted money out of players too. so as a newbye, after years of grinding when you reach level 115, only then you can match others - assuming that the game doesn't shut down by then or if all players don't leave. anyway so there was this game, i liked it a lot and the PvP started with many opponents who were still low levels like beginners such as me. all day it was either killing monsters to get stronger, which is least boring for a bomber like i was, or kill-stealing goldies which are mini-bosses with good loot (the bomber always does highest damage per hit which means you can often 1-hit players or monsters), or checking maps where i can have a random fight with someone who isn't too strong, or i could go to random events like defense strategic points where my nation had to camp maps so that we can defend an objective building. and even if my nation would be too strong and there weren't enough fights to participate, i could always chat meanwhile or duel anybody, etc. i found this game so entertaining that once i noticed that i forgot to touch myself FOR DAYS.. i was thinking at the game you know.. what else to say - dreamers are opposed to being practical, realistic. they stick to ideals like justice, honor, etc. but it's so easy to twist this idea in imagination and you still believe in it. so it leads to false perceptions. about perceptions, you can overthink things as a dreamer. so the dreamer may think the same situation over and over in his mind if he thinks it's interesting enough or worth thinking of. but the more he thinks, the more imagination turns into an "illusion" far from reality? like that song from nazareth when they say that you're fooling yourself. also overthinking can make the dreamer to avoid taking any action exactly in the important decisions. so like the dreamer knows that he's got to say something to a girl for example. he knows he really wants to do it but before doing anything, as usual, he thinks most carefully about it first. and second time, and third time, and in the end it just never really happens.. so anybody who's a dreamer like me should really know these things i guess? a dreamer just wants to feel good but in the end it can cause you problems too.. :((((((((((((((
